A story of freedom

Hello Travellers!

I just attended an encouragement party and felt so much love and motivation that I decided to share my story too.

I come from India, a country known for its diversity—different communities, cultures, landscapes, forests, mountains, rivers, birds, languages, and so much more. I love India for all of this diversity. The reason I joined World Pulse was to become part of a community where I could be heard, connected with others, and learn from people of different cultures across the world. But honestly, I had little idea about what to expect until I actually came here, and I must thank Kirthi for introducing me to it.

Part I

During my school days, I wasn’t considered a "bright" child, as I struggled with academics. My destiny seemed set even before I understood it—I was expected to marry someone chosen by my family by the age of 17 or 18. Most of my cousins were married by then, and this tradition continues today. Coming from a community like mine, the chances of a girl’s education are slim and become almost nonexistent if she doesn’t excel in her studies.

Fortunately, I developed an interest in Science and Math in grade 9, thanks to a tutor who would crack silly jokes and help me relax—it worked! I began to enjoy academics, and it also became a kind of escape from many things happening at home. I knew I could be married off at any time, but I thought if I studied well, I might avoid it.

Of course, the rules were different for boys. While they also faced limitations, they clearly had privileges that I, as a girl, didn’t. I was reminded every day that “I am born to marry.”

After finishing my master’s in physics, I wanted to continue studying, but I was told to wait until after marriage. It would have been foolish to think I could pursue something at my husband’s house that I wasn’t allowed to do at my parents' house.

I thought working somewhere was better than staying home, and fortunately, I connected with a school where I met some of the most amazing people in my life, who are still my friends today. This place not only made me confident but also gave me wings to fly.

Unfortunately, my family didn’t change their plans about marrying me. In my community, marriage is seen as a girl’s destiny. I resisted but was married off anyway to a man who, though he seemed modern, had very traditional views. Fortunately, I was able to get a divorce, and my family supported me, though my community did not.

My friends stood by me, and I continued working without any breaks. I had the privilege of working with organizations like the Azim Premji Foundation, Eklavya Foundation, and a Krishnamurti school in Benaras. These experiences gave me countless opportunities to learn.

However, by November 2024, I reached a breaking point where I started questioning my identity. I decided to take a break in January.

Part II

During these eight months, I read extensively, connected with nature, and tried to understand myself. I am now exploring how social justice can be achieved, what types of injustices exist, and the reasons behind them. I want to see how education can help us understand these issues and create systems that are inclusive and just, where no one else decides my path. This is why I am preparing for my master’s in education.

In these months, I also rediscovered my connection with birds. I would go to different places with my binoculars and journal, observing birds and immersing myself in their world. Watching birds has become a source of comfort and excitement for me, and I often watch them from my window. I also took up painting. I loved collecting flowers as a child, and that interest has continued—I mostly draw flowers and enjoy playing with colors.

I am also searching for what truly fulfills me. I love learning about new things, things that make sense to me.

However, there are challenges. I am constantly reminded—if not by others, then by myself—that I am 34 and haven’t achieved much by society’s standards. Age sometimes weighs heavily on me, and I don’t feel as free as I once did.

This journey of Part II hasn’t been easy, yet I know there’s no other way to go about it. I believe we are all seeking a sense of belonging, which is why I am here. Sometimes, I feel like I belong to a different era, one with more human connection and a simpler way of life. I love learning about different cultures and connecting with people from all walks of life.

I realize how important it is to be surrounded by people who motivate and understand you. I am on this journey to be more authentic with myself and others.

I look forward to learning from you, connecting with you on this journey, and I am confident this is the place where I can find people who will listen without judgment.

Thanks for reading.

Gratitude,

Nidhi